Pain and hope

I've welcomed sorrow and pain to my heart since you left, they are my everyday guests but are getting used to living here, that is without any complaint nor desire to have them depart. There are no contracts attached, all that they need is to stay here for as long as they wish. They have made my heart a rather strangely cozy place; along with our memories and pictures of you, they have ingrained a sense of dead calm that soothes and manages to keep the noise away from this world. They are good neighbors, always telling me that they are ready to move on a moment's notice and hold no bitterness against any sudden wishes; all they want, they imply, is to help me move on until happiness, joy, and hope return. You see, when you left this world, I asked them to leave the premises but on peaceful terms. They were more than helpful with this transition and reminded me that they are seconds away to return, just on thought they will be back, no questions asked. You see, I just cannot see